New Beginnings - Spiritual Awakening

Today I would like to share a little bit about my past, as it will help other to know that they are not alone in any situation. No matter what has happened or will happened chances are it has happened to someone else, and, chances are they all made it through to the other side and are extremely happy with their life.

With that being said, have you ever had a really terrible year? Where you were on top of the world one minute & then the next just extremely low the next?

This just so happens to be that year for me, in the past year I had a dear friend my only best friend I would say in my entire life get up and walk away from me. This friend was extremely special.

Why is she, you ask? Well, have you ever had that one friend you could confidently tell anything to, someone that you spent ridiculous amounts of time with and it was never boring. A person that you just felt so strongly about that there was a reason they were in your life, that you would do absolutely anything for.

Lets just say, I can't even begin to end this description for it still wouldn't do it justice and it's just this overwhelming feeling of warmth that blankets over the soul. She had her reason's for moving away & we keep in touch as much as we can but I am beginning to notice that Life has taking control of both of our lives.

Going from text messages and the odd phone call every day to once a week until eventually it will lead to once a month and then on holidays. Someday's it is hard, other day's with being so busy its just easy to set those emotions to the side. Usually when I am sitting at home taking a little bit of a break I'll start thinking about the past which just sets me into a mood.

For the most part I have found ways to divert my emotions and channeling them into other forms of Creativity. (This would be one of them) Other times I usually just pick up a good read from a website or two.

Among my favourites right now is, http://www.marcandangel.com/

Truth is I don't think these emotions are meant to ever go away & try as you might to burry them deep inside you or try to keep yourself busy as much as you can, I know 40 years down the line when everything in life is quiet and content, these emotions will come flooding in like the hoover dam broke.

The point is if you're going through a similar instance not to push these emotions away and think that there is something wrong with you. There is nothing wrong with love, there is nothing wrong with caring for a person so much.

In fact feel blessed that the hand of angel came forth and touched your soul with such depth that will echo through out time. 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years you will still have the same emotions, and they will be just as strong the minute before you die as they are today fresh in your mind.

And though the mind may forget piece as it gets older your heart will never forget the angel that came into your life and changed the D.N.A of your soul.

With that being said, her leaving has taught me another lesson which I kindly had to re-learn. Be true to thyself, despite all the awesome memories shared I felt cold and alone and became so accustom to having someone around. I had to learn how to really love myself again and be happy with who I am because I didn't have someone to hide with.

This has been a very hard lesson to learn, when you stay awake at night thinking constantly your mind in a bitter state, creates an aura of negativity.

Practicing Self-Love becomes a chore instead of something that should have been done since day one.

Here are couple ways I have been using Self-Love to heal myself and that work!

Take a lot of alone time. If you think about it's like you're getting into a relationship with yourself. And what do you do in order to get to know someone, you take them out, you find out about them. Some place quiet where you're able to truly engage in a conversation.

Do something for yourself. Often times we neglect the most important person in our lives, which is ourselves. Also more often or not we use excuses to get out of creating happiness for ourselves. Like "I can't afford to go out" - "It's crazy to go to the movies by yourself" That prevents you from really truly being happy, it should be on top of everyones priority list that once a week you treat yourself to a YOU day.

Have you ever been in such an instance where someone close to you has left & had that feeling of drifting apart? Leave a comment below!